have you ever been caught in the middle? in the middle of two opposing forces which explodes in the slightest contact? have you ever been captured in one of those forces and that force keeps charging at you and blaming you just because you keep contact with the other force..? have you ever felt how hard it is to be caught in the middle and be the one always to blame..
it sucks..i hate it but what can i do? i am caught in the middle of fighting and those forces are my parents..i am always to blame..the rebel one they say..i try to understand things but do i always have to the one to blame? sometimes i could escape..i'd try to go somewhere far and live there peacefully..
one says i go for the money and the material things..i choose to understand and that's what i get..i am irresponsible..selfish..the black sheep..is it because i know more than i should and have been thinking for my own? is it because i choose to understand the other side?is it because i never yielded to what she wants?
never has anyone took my opinion on matters as important as that..and i thank that other side...that other force..if she only knew how to do such then i wouldn't be like this..she always thinks that i shouldn't meddle with her things..but isn't it unfair that she can meddle with mine? she always treats me like someone who doesn't know things..someone so sentimental and emotional that it affects the way i have been..
but look things first and see who i really am..have you appreciated me the way you appreciate other things and my sister?did you ever appreciated the craft i have been working on? or do you think it's just foolish blabbering of a child who doesn't really care? did you ever read between those lines? have you ever see through the me i use to hide?no because you were busy comparing and saying i am stupid and selfish..
i just wish you could read this..but then you wouldn't have time..all these things are nonsense..and a waste of time..
