waiting

how long will i wait? sometimes i get impatient,,
sometimes i tend to see time goes by fast..
but the truth is
i cant wait for that day
i don't want to rush things
it will only worsen
but how long will i have to wait
and sit and pray?
days? nights? week?
months? years?
tell me how long
cause i don't know how long can i keep waiting
for something unknown..

NOTHING CAN STOP A DREAMER

A dreamer goes where others do not dare
 and sees beyond the ordinary
 moving with unlimited vision and purpose


A dreamer does not pause to worry
 will not hesitate along the way
 is not afraid of a challenge
 and does not despair or becomes disillusioned

From a dreamer's eye the view is breathtaking
 the ideas are endless
 and the possibilities goes on and on


A dreamer is blessed with enough
 imagination to see what life might hold
 enough initiative to go after it
 and enough inspiration and insight to succeed


A dreamer can see far beyond today
 into a future bright with promise
A dreamer's dream never end
 until all those dreams come true..

A PROMISE OF FOREVER

He promised me forever
But his forever is just like
the life span of a lotus flower
something that blooms in the morning
and dies in the evening
the life span of a fly
of a rose that blooms and dies
forever was not forever in its meaning 
but rather an ornament
to make the stupid heart of mine
fall into an abyss of sorrow
his forever
was not the forever i know
it was not something to be happy about
but rather something to be aware of
a flower with poisonous thorns
to make a foolish heart die
with just the slightest touch

UNTITLED 3

In the midst of the laughter
The shouts and the cheers
How will they hear
a hearts that has been in tears?
Will it's cry overpower the cheers?
Will they feel its mourn in the midst of the shouts?
Will they hear its suffering in the midst of their excitement?
How? Tell me how?
Will they feel it's sadness?
How? Tell me how?
Will they feel it's loneliness?
In the midst of it all
How will they feel?
How will they hear?
In the midst of it
How will they know?

SA NAKALIPAS

Lumilingon sa nakalipas
Iniisip mga bagay na nagwakas
Ang dating makulay at masaya
Bakit biglang nagiba?


Kung kelan handa ng harapin nag bukas
Bakit kelangang magbalik ang nakalipas?
Kung kelan sigurado n asa paglimot
Bakit ngayon bumabalik ang lungkot?


Sa nakalipas, sa mga bagay na nagwakas
Bakit pilit pa ring bumabalik?
Sa nakaraan, mg ala-alang iniwanan
Bakit hatid pa rin ay luha sa mata?


Bumabalik na alaala
na sa puso'y binaon ko na
Na dati hatid ay tuwa
Ngayon lungkot at luha

NOT REALLY

Love was there but not really
We had an chance of forever but not really
I loved him but not really
I guess it was but not really


He was mine but not really
I never really had him
So i never really lost him
I guess this is how we'll gonna be
I had him HE had me
but then again there's no us really

UNTITLED 2

Tapos n ang paliwanag
Sawa na sa pakikinig
Sinabi nang lahat ng sasabihin
Binuhos na ang damdamin


Tapos na bang magsalita?
At pagod na ba ang puso sa nadarama?
Ang sakit ng pagiisa
Ang hapdi ng pangungulila


Kung wala ka ng sasabihin
Kung pagos na nag iyong damdamin
Sa mga nadarama
Tama lang na pahinga muna


Tapos na ba sa pagluha?
Pagod na ba ang iyong mga mata?
Naibuhos na ba ang sakit?
Wala na ba ang hapdi?

STARS

starless nights
all my nights have been starless since you left
the moon didn't even bother to shine
not a twinkle of light to gaze upon


eyes full of tears
it's been like a season of rain
and i can't help but weep
since the day you left


my heart's been left full of sorrows
been lonely and sad all the time
can't stop the tears taht have been falling
can't stop my heart from aching
how i wish there was an easy way to cure
that there's an easy remedy
for a heart that's been nearly dying

UNTITLED

A lost and wounded soul
struggling to find the right way
Wandering the depths of darkness
searching for some light
but then realizing there is none
lost, empty,starving, bleeding
how will someone know it's there?
left alone in the abysss
where will it find help?
it screamed and shouted
still,no one hears
her wails, her cries, her screams, her shouts
when will it find the right way?
when will it get out of the darkness?
she's been hurt, bleeding, wounded, lonely
her heart;s been torn
sadness.. where does it came from?
pity, that soul, pity for herself
she's been broken
fought but still lost
happy but tormented
she doesn't know what to do
and the sadness still remains
it lingers there
penetrating every emotion inside her
until it rules..

CLOUDY DAYS

Walang ulap sa kalangitan
Walang kahit anong tanda ng pagulan
Kay ganda ng hapon
Kay ganda ng panahon


Ngunit di tugma sa'king damdamin
ang puso ko'y nasa ilalim ng ulap na itim
Habang ang mundo'y sumasayaw sa kasiyahan
Ako'y naliligo sa malakas na ulan ng aking kalungkutan


Sa ilalim ng ulan ng aking pagdadalamhati
Sa isang pag-ibig na nasayang ako'y ngasisisi


Sana di sinayang ang panahon
Sana di sinayang ang magandang hapon
Pnahong sana sinabi ko
Wag ka ng umalis sa tabi ko
Di sana nanghihinayang
At ang puso'y masaya ng totoo

KAHIT KONTI LANG(Ang huling telegrama)

Di pinapansin
Isa ka lamang estranghero
Para sa akin ay balewala
Ngunit habang tumatagal
Ako sayo'y nahuhulog na


Di ko inisip na ikaw pala
Ang anghel na nagbibigay pagasa
Bumaba dito sa lupa
Upang ako'y bigyang saya


Nais ko lang iparating
Laman nitong damdamin
Di sinasadyang mahulog
Di sinasadyang ika'y mahalin


Iniisip ka, gabi at umaga
Hinahanap ka,minu-minuto pa
Gusto ko lang malaman mo
Ika'y minamahal ng totoo
Sana'y pagbigyan mahalin mo din
Kahit konti lang

THE TWIN OF MY WRITINGS

it has been months since i wrote something

for me because writing is my last resort

the sanctuary of my thoughts

but then i think it is  because my writing has a twin

i write whenever he comes into my mind

all these time I've been blocking him

never giving him a way to enter my thoughts

but just that

all the barriers I've seem to build has just collapsed

leaving me defenseless

leaving me open to him

i built the barriers to stop me from feeling pain

to stop me for waiting for something that wouldn't come

to stop me for hoping of things that will never be

but the barriers, the walls have been broken down

and now here i am writing again

the feeling of being left alone

the feeling of sadness

the feeling of a hope that has been burnt

here they come again

so i have to stop writing

to you who has had me waiting for nothing

to you who has had me hoping for things that wouldn't be

this is the last thought i would give you

this would be the last time you would come into my mind

and i hope that someday

my writing will find another twin

someone who wouldn't appear and disappear

someone who will constantly be there

i'll be waiting for you

and until then my writings will have to end.

ALWAYS SOMETHING TO DISAPPOINT ME WITH

why is it that everyday you disappoint me

you always have a lie to make me believe

and the next minute you reveal the truth

and why is it that every time i believe you

and let the shattered pieces of my trust go to dust

why is it that everytime you make a tear appear in my eye

i hate it

i hate how easy you could make me believe

but i can't help myself

i open my heart each time to you

without any defense

you make me feel pain everytime

but i'm stuck and i don't know how to stop believing

and now here i am

disappointed again

trying to cope up with pain

trying to make things go away

i hate it and it makes me cry.

but what can i do

deep inside my heart

i know the love i feel can never go

it stays hidden but i never goes away

MY EVERYTHING TO YOU

It feels like i have always known you

and i swear i dreamed about you all those endless nights i was alonE

it's like i've spent forever searching

now i know that it was worth it with you it feels like i'm finally home

falling head over heels

thought i knew how it feels

but with you it's like the first day of my life

cause you leave me speechless when you talk to me

and you leave me breathless by the way you look at me

you've managed to disarm me

my soul is shining through

can't help but surrender

my everything to you..