i'm over it..and soon i'm gonna be over you too..

so that's it..the end of a foolish feeling for someone..i've said it and he's so dumb not to know it's for him..and i've got the answer..

i'll stop now..let go of you..won't wish again..won't wait for that second chance..it will never come..i'm just wishing in the air..

i'm over you now..i won't look back..got to plan things in front of me now..won't stay and hope to change the past..

i'm done with this thing..this situation sucks..i'll move forward..no turning back..and if ever we meet again in one of the crossings of life..if ever we both are still available..and this feelings inside me is still there..maybe..just maybe that is the second chance i have been waiting..but for now..i know there isn't any second chance..there is any chance..

so goodbye for now..i hope someday we cross path again..

mahal kita..alam mo ba?

mahal kita..alam mo ba?
iniisip kita
iniintay kung kailan muling makakausap
iniintay ang sandaling ika'y muling magisnan
hinihintay na muling marinig ang iyong tinig

hanggang kailan ako maghihintay?
hanggang pangarap na lang ba?
hanggang sa panaginip?
hanggang sa alaala?

naiisip mo kaya?
nararamdaman?
na minamahal kita..
at ayaw kong ipaalam..

nahihirapan man ako
ito ang dapat gawin
ang itago ang pagibig
ang nararamdama'y itanggi

malaman mo sana
maintindihan ang sinasabi
at sana...sana nga'y pareho ng nararamdaman
at pinipintig ang ating mga puso

a thing is a thing and a feeling is a feeling

the thing is you always affect the way i feel.. the way i plan my day.. the things i do..
but you don't notice it, do you?

why are you so ignorant? so insensitive..you make or break my day..but you don't seem to care..

how i wish i was her..but then i was her once..i have missed my chance..and that chance won't come my way again..or maybe? but that was yours to decide.. you don't think i feel this way do you? because you only see the smile in my face..how i wish..yes i really wish..but then i want it over with..

because this feelings hurt me..and this time i don't want you hurting me again..

full moon

full moon in my sight
a quiet night
the owls hooting the crickets singing
and i wishing..
do i ever cross your mind?
do you ever miss me when i'm far?
a peaceful night it is..
an irony to what i've been feeling
storms of feeling inside
crashing within my fragile heart
how i wish you knew
how i wish you'd care..
i wish the full moon could grant wishes too..
cause if she does
i'll never stop till my wish is granted

how i wish i knew then what i know now

feelings..they can kill you..they can reborn you..they can make you..or they can break you..

you let her go..it was your fault.. the most stupid thing you have ever done. now you want her back? how do you think will she react?

you let him go..you have given up..you didn't believe that he'll come back..now he wants you back..but you have already been broken many times..you don;t think it will last..you doubt..though you know deep inside you're heart that you still love him..that you still care..but you let go again..thinking he was waiting for somebody else..how do you think will he feel..

letting go.. the worst part of a relationship..it ends everything..trashes memory..letting go and wanting someone back again..the hardest thing to learn and the hardest thing to do..

the thing that hurts the most

hurt..love left unsaid and kept because it is not meant for you..silenced because it will never work..

does it hurt? yes absolutely..it hurts very much..but who cares..he doesn't even know..he doesn't even know that it hurts every time he talks about her..he is so ignorant..he doesn't notice i flinch..that he makes me happy every time.. and he hurts me most of the time.. 

i should not have let you..but i don't know how to stop..

i'm a hopeless someone..waiting he'll notice that i love him..but he doesn't and that's what hurts the most..

on looking back and looking forward..

years has passed..what have i learned? did i learn to move on? did i learn to hold on to things that matters till you can? questions..did i ever answer them?

four years and counting..has my heart learned how to forget? and did i ever learn how to forget? it like my chain has just expanded.. i thought i was free.. but then realized that the chain was still there preventing me from going too far..preventing me to forget..

i didn't know i have not moved till just recently..i know..i'm stupid..i've messed up..so what? do you care? did you ever notice me like you did before? before things turn out the way i never wanted..or is it that you glance and then pass me by? does i mean a thing to you now?

HOW I WISH THINGS ARE MUCH MUCH MORE DIFFERENT THAN IT IS NOW..i feel lost..i feel sad..but i wouldn't tell you..i wouldn't let you know that the cause of that sadness is you..why would i? its like mocking myself using my own words..

i guess i've done enough to show you signs..but just like then you were so ignorant..so blind with what's so close that you always look far beyond..

if you ever read this message or rather this..(which i know you will)will you please consider me for a moment? will you please tell me it's over and wake me up from this? slap me if you must..just take me out if this..

full moon

here i am alone
looking at the moon
thinking...
and i can't help but wonder
about things
there's so much left
unsaid
unanswered
unspoken
there's so much left to think of..
questions
puzzles
the moon..
oh how i wash i was the moon
wish i can be like it
hide behind my clouds
when i can't take it
no more..
but after all the reminiscing
 i just sit here
and stare at the sky
i thank God
for it was
a beautiful night..

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di maipaliwanag
kung bakit nagkakaganito
nasasabik, naiinis
natutuwa,nalulungkot

hindi maintindihan
itong nararamdaman ko
naguguluhan sa puso
ikaw nga ba'y iniibig ko

ilang ulit ng nangyari
nawala ang pagmamahal
ilang beses ng itinanggi
pagibig na nararamdaman

bakit ba?
hindi ko maiwasan
damdami'y di mapigilan
bakit ba?
di na ako natuto
di nadalang masaktan muli ang puso

ilang beses ng nasaktan
sa iyong kamnhidan
ilang ulit ng iniwasan