the thing that really hurts the most is the reality that even though you hate him a thousand times you still know you love him a million times deep inside..
you may act like you don't care about a thing in his world..say things that hurts..ignore..but you can't escape the truth..it was just a cover.a mask.and now you hurt..you hurt more than he has..you may say his jokes are stupid and that he hasn't any sense at all..but that's it.. it was just a disguise. an angry disguise to hide what you really feel..
you now hurt. you hurt more than he has with those words you said.. it was painful to see him go and be with somebody else.but..you have to..you know things aren't meant to be.. disaster comes whenever you two are together..you can't seem to agree with the same idea..but the fact is you still ignore it..
he has gone..he has moved on.why can't you?
and now you feel alone in twilight..hoping somebody sees..somebody hears..somebody has a time to read..but it was just wishful thinking..things like this most not be noticed..things like this should stay hidden because if not then you shouldn't have written it here.. you should have posted it somewhere more public..but you know you can't things like these are like viruses..it kills softly..
