THE TWIN OF MY WRITINGS

it has been months since i wrote something

for me because writing is my last resort

the sanctuary of my thoughts

but then i think it is  because my writing has a twin

i write whenever he comes into my mind

all these time I've been blocking him

never giving him a way to enter my thoughts

but just that

all the barriers I've seem to build has just collapsed

leaving me defenseless

leaving me open to him

i built the barriers to stop me from feeling pain

to stop me for waiting for something that wouldn't come

to stop me for hoping of things that will never be

but the barriers, the walls have been broken down

and now here i am writing again

the feeling of being left alone

the feeling of sadness

the feeling of a hope that has been burnt

here they come again

so i have to stop writing

to you who has had me waiting for nothing

to you who has had me hoping for things that wouldn't be

this is the last thought i would give you

this would be the last time you would come into my mind

and i hope that someday

my writing will find another twin

someone who wouldn't appear and disappear

someone who will constantly be there

i'll be waiting for you

and until then my writings will have to end.